My Creative Space...
It has been a difficult week for me personally and I have struggled with every single day, smiling on the outside yet feeling breathless on the inside as the tears and sleepless nights seem to never end. It has been nine months and even though you hear that it gets easier as time goes on...well it hasn't and my heart still hurts and I wish I could make it better.
We are having a cuppa to show support today and I hope I can get through it without too many tears.
On the upside, I have been making some brooches using Kylie's fabulous tutorial as a guide and I want to make you one, or maybe two as a way to say thanks and to make you smile. So just leave me a hello here wherever you are, I'll leave it open for a week or so and pick a name out of the virtual mixing bowl.
After that, why don't you pop round to Kirsty's and check out some wonderfully creative girls.
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Its so hard I know. Believe me it will get easier, even though you don't think so now. It does take time. I still remember my father even though its been 8 years and I still shed a tear here and there - at the most unexpected times usually when something reminds me of him like a song he liked. It never really goes away but I have found I have accepted it and if I didn't think about him then it wouldn't be human. I wish I could be at the morning tea tomorrow. Its a great cause and I am sure it will be a success. Big hugs :)
ReplyDeleteSweetest Cathie, I'm so so sorry for your loss. What can I say, losing a beloved one is horrible. Two years ago my sweet sweet Dad passed away, he suffered mesothelioma cancer, every time I visit my mother I still expect dad to step into the room any minute. A couple of times a week {when I'm alone with my thoughts}, I keep telling myself UNBELIEVABLE. That is the only word, I still think it unbelievable. Think our beloved ones truly live on for ever and ever in our daily doings. Things they were used to doing or saying which I did not like too much, I do them too these days. Enough about me, you are in my thoughts Cathie, sending many many happy thoughts your way. xxooxxoo
ReplyDeleteNow, if you excuse me I must be off to check out Kristy's sweet little corner in the world. xx
So sorry to hear of your sadness cathie. It is the anniversary of my father-in-laws death today (11 years), I never got to meet him which I always think so sad but I see how he might have been through my husband (people say they were alike in many ways) and I think this is how our departed loved ones live on through memories and the personalities and little quirks that they pass on through the generations.
ReplyDeleteI hope this sadness can pass and that you find comfort in your morning tea get together and maybe even have the odd chuckle.
By the way, on a much lighter note, you were a runner up in my giveaway a while back so email me your address and I can send something cheerful your way. x
(sassybats[at]hotmail[dot]com)
All my love - feeling your sadness. Time does heal... but it does take quite a bit of time. oxo
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, so glad you have some wonderful people to share a cuppa with today. Your brooch is beautiful and indeed made me smile :)
ReplyDeleteOh Cathie I can't imagine how it must be , losing a parent.
ReplyDeletethinking of you big time this morning and sending lots of love and hugs xo
I will be thinking of you today...I will share a cup of tea with my family in your honour. I hope that next week is a better for you. <>
ReplyDeleteAlways hard to know what to say to lovely people I know in situations like this Cathie. I lost my father when I was 8, and my parents were separated at the time, so not a lot of memories or even grown up feelings that I can relate to you with. But I am sending a big warm hug your way. It's all I can think to do.
ReplyDeleteI too, will think of you when I have my cup of tea today, in one of my special cups with a saucer! If only I had a lovely cupcake to add to that.
Loving your excellent flower. xoxo
Cathie, here is a big cuddle from me to you. I have no words to comfort you, but i will send you my thoughts and love and hope that the pain doesn't hurt so much soon. You have an angel with you always protecting you and watching your beautiful family grow. xx f
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking of you Cathie xxx
ReplyDeleteOh Cathie, we've never met but I think of you and this journey of grief you are on very often. I really do wish the pain could be lessened by the number of us here who understand how you feel but there are times when the sadness is just so overwhelming that it feels so raw and sad.
ReplyDeleteI love your brooch and feel every bit of emotion that went in to making it.
Have a wonderful morning remembering the wonderful times, eating yummy treats and being with loved ones.
Much, much, much love to you.
xoxoxo
Big hugs Cathie. Your Father was obviously a very special man. I am sure he would be incredibly proud to see what you achieve every single day. xxx
ReplyDeleteAWWW.... look at them both... hehe your so clever lady!! hehe
ReplyDeletexo Steph
Sending much love your way. May all the beautiful memories you have carry you through the sorrowful times. xx
ReplyDeleteOh Darling Cathie I wanna wrap my arms round you, give you a huge hug and tell you it's OK. It is you know. There's no timetable, no set date for when the hurting stops. One day when you least expect you'll have that lightbulb moment ... and voila the pain will be gone! Chin up Darling, you know he's watching over you and probably pulling out all stops to make your hurting stop.
ReplyDeleteYou're too gorgeous to be sad. C'mon gimme one big smile please ;-) xo.
Be gentle on yourself and I hope the morning tea is a comfort to you, thinking of you and your loss and am wishing for and hoping you find peace and joy in small moments.
ReplyDeletelots of love and thoughts for you...take care of you xxxx
ReplyDeleteThinking of you today. It is nearly 6 years since we lost my fil suddenly to cancer and it still feels like yesterday. I hope you enjoy your morning tea, and cry if you need to.
ReplyDeleteGreat to be there with you this morning Cathie. Lots of love.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you - only time heals but the memories never fade. There are a lot of people here sending you there love and strength. Your brooch by the way is stunning.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you lovely lady and sending you a very big hug xoxo
ReplyDeleteSorry Cathie. I hope today was a welcome distraction for you. xo
ReplyDeleteBig hug from me. I know it is so hard, and I hope it gets easier for you soon. I wish I could offer you some way to make it easier. Cherish his memory.
ReplyDeleteOh big hugs and support to you love. The first year is monumentally difficult and then the days will gradually bare less pain.
ReplyDeleteI feel like my father is still with me in everything I do and feel great comfort with that feeling.
I love Saskia's words above- that our beloved ones live forever in our daily doings. It is very true. Sending a smile your way. x
Cathie, reading all these comments, so many of us have lost our dads too, so know you are not alone. Its always ok to cry, I still cry about my dad sometimes and he died 6 years ago this August...I will always have a little pain in my heart knowing that he never got to meet Busy as he would have loved her spirit so much... I hope the day was Ok for you all, sending big hugs. xx
ReplyDeleteOh Cathie. Sending you warm cyber hugs. I hope you were able to have a good time with your friends this morning as well being able to shed a few tears for your lovely Dad xx
ReplyDeleteWhen I was raw and grieving for a lost baby, my mother opened up to me and told me that for more than a year, her Dad was the first thing she thought about when she woke up. Pop had lived a good long life and was very sick, and I had no idea of her pain until she was sharing mine.
ReplyDeleteWell done for being able to share your grief. I'm sure it's the right way to go about this thing.
Hugs to you.
Sending hugs your way - Hoping that you got though the day and onto another. Baby steps and tears. They do help (well I think they do)
ReplyDeleteSo much love to you Cathie. XX
ReplyDeleteOh Kathie...I am so sorry. I can hear the pain in your words & it is giving me tears too. Make sure you get a journal or something to record stories about your dad to pass down to your kids. I am sure he was wonderful to have raised such a loving daughter as you. There is just something about a girl's daddy, isn't there. Sending my love!
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Sending you oodles of extra hugs today my sweet friend...memories of dear ones are always in our heart. xoxoxoo
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you are having such a tough time. Lots of love to you. Look forward to seeing you again soon. Lou.
ReplyDeletein my prayers & thoughts darling girl...this too will pass...TK xx
ReplyDeleteI love what you have done there with your flower brooch. Stunning! I hope you found some happy moments filled with joyful memories as well yesterday.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, Cathie. The grief will never completely disappear, but then I don't think we would want that to happen because we definitely don't want to forget. But it will become easier to bear, eventually. Hugs xx
ReplyDeleteSo sorry Cathie, I feel you...
ReplyDeleteIt's alright to grief~ give yourself that permission. I hope you feel better very soon.
HUGS*
My sympathy Cathie. It's so touching to read all these comments... You have a right to feel this way.Family is everything. And it's good that you transform your energy to creative things. It's a lovely brooch - thanks for the links!
ReplyDeleteHello from Athens-Greece!
Darling Cathie, i was at a Biggest Morning Tea so missed your post, raising funds it my little pet project, after 11 year without a mother-in-law, it doesn't get any less sad. I feel for my children who started off each of their lives down one grandparent & that sucks!! Love Posie
ReplyDeleteSorry I haven't popped in sooner. Just catching up on reading and realised what a tough time you are having. Hugs and love to you. Wish they were physical and not just verbal. Lisa x
ReplyDeleteoh big hugs to you! tears coming down my face as I write this because cancer is so cruel and I'm so sorry to read about your Dad. To me it always happened to other people's families but it's been almost 3 years for us and it's still spreading in my mum's body and I haven't come to terms with the fact that she will leave us so much earlier than we ever wanted.
ReplyDeletethe biggest hugs to all of you, such a sad thing to deal with and to lose a parent is so devastating however old we are.
Corrie:)
all credit to you for using your space to honour the memory of your dad. it's so devastating to lose them and the grief manifests in so many different ways. it will take time, sometimes a really long time. just think about how proud he must feel to know that you honour his memory by putting the best you can into living life
ReplyDeleteyou are such a sweet heart. wanted to tell you I love your photos! the cupcake one with the little baby rose, stunning. much love sweetness! xx
ReplyDeleteI'm so so sorry for your loss. What can I say.. I wish I was able to hug you.. With my love XXX
ReplyDeletei think of you always, and keep you in my prayers.
ReplyDeletelove to you~
Cathie you are in my thoughts always. With the love of your family and time will help to heal the loss of your beloved father. Hugs to you lovely lady. Take Care. xo
ReplyDeleteGrief is such an insidious, but often necessary thing. I hope you start smiling on the inside soon. Make sure you take care of yourself. x
ReplyDeleteBig hugs miss Cathie. I most definitely felt as though I really wanted my dad back for a chat and a cuppa this week too.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are with you
Jay xx
sending many prayers and big *hugs* your way! so sorry for your loss...
ReplyDeleteMany Blessings!
Jill
There is always a space in our hearts that will never seem to fully heal over with the loss of a parent. Sometimes the sadness just pops in when you least expect it, even after years, and that is just how it is - continue to be gentle on yourself. I see different traits of my Dad in my children and nieces and nephews and that helps me to know that my memories of him are in plain sight in these joyful and robust young people.
ReplyDeleteHi Cathie! I can't imagine what you are going through and I am sure you are coping as well as can be expected. Look at all this wonderful support you have though and encouraging words from people that get a view into your world through your lovely blog, stay strong and you will continue to cope. Megan x
ReplyDeleteYour flowers are lovely - as are you, and your blog! Have a great weekend! Nic
ReplyDeleteI hope that in time the pain heals and you are able to remember the good times. The very best of wishes xx
ReplyDeleteSending hugs your way. These brooches are adorable!! Hope you are having a nice weekend.-Heidi
ReplyDeleteYour flowers look really beautiful. Sorry for your sad loss. I do hope that in time your sadness becomes easier to bare...
ReplyDeleteYour creativity is still flowing .... and your work is lovely.
ReplyDeleteHey Cathie, Read your blog for the first time. You are a strong lady and I am impressed with your honesty and your beautiful creative works.
ReplyDeleteHi Cathie,
ReplyDeleteI wanted to take the time to give you a big hug {wish it was a real one}. I have lost my mum and I still do not know what to say to you.
breathe
You will find your way of coming to inner peace with your loss, and most importantly you have to give yourself time.
take care lovely lady. I am always up to listening. xx
How sad, Cathie. I do hope each day gets a little easier for you.
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